I wake up, cook food, go for a walk, watch screens and people die. It feels like there is nothing else that I can do. They continue to tell me that is what I need to do.

So I do it. It is like watching a slow motion accident. I am not sure who is in the car. It might be myself. It is others right now. The one thing that I need is connection to others and if I do it it might well kill me.

I am watching from afar at the moment, but who knows when this invisible beast comes to town. I will watch and wait for it to come here. I hope it doesn’t take someone I know, or myself. I would prefer not to suffocate.

Is living on pause now? I try to remember that I am a lucky one I have enough to live, but it gets lonely and how long will they continue to die???