I stand under the sky. Letting the energy of the light pour into my eyes. Driving down the highway, through a ocean of white snow, I feel it. It’s all around me.

I used to absorb the darkness, it was in my soul. I saw the decay, hurt, and pain in life. There was always something putrid behind the beautiful. After awhile I was so afraid that I just closed off completely.

I have been able to find a way back from that place. A way back into the light. It has been hard. I look for the beauty, and even though I know that there is decay underneath, I rejoice in the process that turns rot into new life.

I can find this in my mistakes, they become platforms of renewal, when I don’t sink into the mire of self pity, and despair. The negative energy of self.

Today I can look around, and see the balance in life. how we are all of one Love. even if we don’t act that way. The energy of love is there, it just needs to be connected to the world around me.

I still slip into that place of self where I stand shivering with fear, and anger. Shut down from the energy of love, absorbed in my own, shut down, world.

I still feel the pull to that castle that I had built around me.Today I choose to open my heart to the energy that will surely make me whole, that will help me build a castle of light. Radiating out from me, the energy of Love.

When I look at you, I try and find that connection. If I look long enough I will find it, but I have to look. I have the energy. I know it when I stand gazing at the sky. I can feel it flow through me, I stand connected to life. The sky over me, and Gaia at my feet. A conduit of energy.

The light of Love can shine through me today. I am limitless. I am not afraid any more. When I take your hand I feel your light. I don’t want to be trapped again. I want to be near you, hold you, absorb your energy. When you see me, please do the same.