I had been burning for a long time. Smouldering, raging, and flickering. The flames licking the inside of my mind. I had tried to put the flames out for years. This had only led to brief periods of relief. Times when I believed that they were not there any more.

Without having water from the spirit I couldn’t put the flames out. The best I could do was to dampen them for a while. Eventually there was just a hollow shell crouched on a floor, saying ” I am so alone ”

From those ashes I hesitantly started to build. They told me I would have to go from the ground up. I reached out with words of Love to fill the void ,now empty of fear and pain. I believed them when they said to go to any lengths.

I have been building for a while now. A castle of Light. Its the hardest thing that I have ever done ! My Father was a builder and I never had any desire to follow in his footsteps, but I have become a man who wields the tools of Love.

With the tools that I had before, fear, shame, and pain, all I could do was to tear you, me and life down.

With the tools of Love I reach out. I see that I have the greatest power of all. I can hold you, I can feel you. I can give of myself. I can give Love.

I know now that I can be what I have been afraid to be. I can join my light to yours. We can join more. This time there will rise a fire of the spirit so powerful it will take me home. I work towards that day with Love shining from me the best that I can.

Ah, the Light.