A person said something to me the other day that left me confused.

This person was talking about his relation to me regarding recovery.

He said, among other things ” You’re my hero ”  I thought about this for the next 2 days. It made me cry, you see I didn’t know where to put it.

I have shelf’s in my mind for all the negative things I have said to myself, and all the negative things I’ve taken from others.

They are labelled: self abuse, low self esteem, self doubt, low self worth, and others. They have chunks of dark metal on them that spell out: ” you’re not good enough, you will never do that, you will never be anything ” They are very full.

This is a different thing altogether. It is shiny, it almost floats in front of me, and gives me feelings that I can’t readily deal with.

After a time of contemplating, I came to the conclusion that I will build a new shelf. It will say: GRATITUDE FROM OTHERS: THANK YOU. It is my most fervent wish that I remember to say that when I receive from others.

I noticed the other shelves didn’t seem quite as full after I put the shiny new one up. When I am questioning myself, or when I am feeling insecure, I hope that I will remember to look on this shelf, and the other one that I built recently: GRATITUDE FOR OTHERS.